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Wednesday, March 18, 2009WARNING: RANT AHEAD - excuse the language please.
I miss him.
Why, bloody hell, why?!
I feel so darn messed up. I swear I'm fine, countless times, but somehow, yesterday made me NOT fine - don't know how that happened, so please, don't ask. Seriously.
I still love him.
After so long. So darn freaking long. Why must emotions be so messed up? Because it's definitely not helping me think rationally. My parents were right - I have definitely not been okay.
Because I kept in contact with him.
There were second thoughts, yes, but I know better. Or so I like to think. But it hurts. It still does. Like I said, emotions = messed up.
All because I still love him. All because of that.
I feel retarded. Maybe I am. Who knows? Whatever, it doesn't matter anymore.
Because I won't see him again. Because I won't message or call him again. Because I'm (going to try) erasing him from my memories, my life...my hopes and dreams for him to be 'The One' for me.
I know there are others out there, but he...is? Was? I don't know... the only one I've ever felt so strongly for. So it hurts. It hurts badly. But I will survive. I know I can. I'm not the only person who feels or have felt like this, after all.
I should've done this earlier. Then maybe it wouldn't hurt so much now; when I'm making it real. But hey, at least I'm doing something. Better late than never.
Bleh, that was depressing. >.< but I had to do it. Otherwise, I won't ever be able to let go.
...I still feel like crying. I guess that's normal, hey? Or maybe it's just me. Who knows? I definitely don't.
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